i have not kept it secret how horny i have been feeling all week. Never i gone through something like this before. It is different though. Usually a horny guy wants a release, but that is not how i feel. It has increased my desire to be useful.
After yesterday’s writing combined with these feelings i am beginning to wonder if it is time to do some kinky things again on my own. Yesterday about lunch time i found myself in panties, which is another story, but they increased that excitement meter. Nothing wrong with that.
i normally only do stuff like that when asked. Not sure why though. There is a risk of me doing activities on my own. It can easily become about what i want. For example i want to increase my pain tolerance, probably for competitive guy reasons. It seems to me though that some kinky tasks might help me be a more useful submissive.
Where is that line between selfish and more useful? i am not sure to be honest. Is that for me to find? Again not sure. This i am sure of though, when my submission becomes about me others including myself get hurt.
So hearing from others about where that line is would be helpful.